Yes! Yes! Update!

Yes, you can't believe it, I can't believe it,

I'm updating.

You've probably noticed the change in my background, from the previous emo one (which for some reason joey likes) to the more, cheerful one. =) It hurts throwing away my work, the background was created by me, using approximately 10 minutes, it breaks my heart, but I have to discard it. =(

I feel really bad for leaving my blog to rot after typing more than a hundred posts.

SO,

I'm going to start AFRESH!  

*echoes*                                           afresh   afresh   afresh .......

Actually I'm inspired by two blogging maniacs, looking at their blog makes me wanna blog. And of course people like them use a large portion of their time to blog,(Like they have nothing better to do)

the duo:

alvin

www.alvinon9.com

and

chien ming

www.chi3nming.com

Their blogs are quite interesting, with a mixture of the 'siao'-ness of CLHS and also some other stuff, drop by to check out. =)

Recently I've noticed ( who hasn't) that quite a number of people are owning dslrs in CLHS, as well as other schools, from around my age group, at least. It's encouraging to see so many people are into photography now.

2 years ago when i got my dslr, 

if I stood in the centre of the school and shout,

14-50mm macro lens on sale! F1.0 ! RM400

most students will say: "Siao ar, don't know what he's crapping about."

Now if I do the same thing,

most students will still say: " Siao ar,"

but the remaining sentence will be : " where got so cheap price one?...you 'gang' who?

irony, but still, encouraging. nonetheless. 

Our school's leos are mostly made up of photography enthusiasts.

according to some leo guy.

anyway, in a nutshell I'm gonna try to revive this blog. woot, happy me.

And get my dslr back from my cousin *glares*

emo rants.

Lately I've found out that I might have multiple personality disorder.

ok

just kidding.

 still, undoubtedly sometimes I act this way, sometimes i act that way.

it's like, this is what you SHOULD do,

but that's what you WANT to do.

And to turn away from what I WANT to do to what I SHOULD do.

is never easy.

It's weird how stuff in this world works.

You walk,

You fall.

Get up and walk,

and fall again.

Man, is there a possibility of not falling?

I guess not,

but well, with God nothing is impossible.

But is it possible to push away what you feel because it's not right?

It's been bothering me,

that I shouldn't feel what i do feel, because it's, 

well, i don't even know if it's right or wrong.

crap.

now i sound like a kid who doesn't now how to differentiate right and wrong.

Doing something you don't really want to do but have to do.

great.

oh great, now i just found out that I just emoly ranted.

fate *scoffs*

It's been a while since I blogged.

Well, I didn't feel like blogging, with so many stuffs piling up,

but then one of my friends wrote in his msn personal message :

It's Fate.

What the heck.

it sorta pissed me off for a reason I don't know.

Just looking at the words made me all heated up.

And that explains why I'm blogging now.

I don't believe in fate.

not for a single second in my life.

The word 

'It's Fate'

are for people who cannot take the fact that they lost something.

Since they have nothing to blame, and not wanting to blame themselves, they blame fate.

I don't believe in fate,

but I pity it. taking the blame for everything.

the generation before us always says: 'Aiya, it's (so so) eh "mia li" la. cannot blame one.'

'Mia li lai la, got then got, don't have will never have.'

btw, mia li is fate in hokkien.

crap la.

I have no idea why I'm pissed by this fate thingy.

serious.

what we do affect what we get.

ha. 

Life's awesome.

I can't wait to know how it's gonna work out.

Life's awesome,

if you grasp the opportunities.

2more days, 2more days, i can do it.

pistachiotaughtmehowtosmile

Man, a week of lonely 10.15 pm(s)

will you still be there?

I suggested it,

but you don't know how hard it was to make it come out from my mouth.

complicated simplicity.

雨后天晴

很多时候，事情很简单。

但是当事者就是看不见。

笑一个。＝）

Sometimes things are simple,

but we tend to complicate it,

until we find out how simple it is,

it's a struggle.

smile. =)

times up.

恩，时间到了。

times up.

Yu-me

我喜欢天空，

因为它往往能反映出我的心情。

今天的天空有点平静，

但又有点乱。

不同形状的云朵在空中飘浮着，

今天的我，思绪确实很乱。

No matter how beautiful the dream is,

You know you'll still need to wake up.

There are times when you know you need to move on,

though your heart yearns to stay.

I shout without a sound,

and then remember,

I need to wake up,

I need to move on,

It hurts,

but that's where I belong.

感じます。思います

私はとても悲しいです

     とても

　　　　とても

　　　　　　　

　　　　　　　　　悲しいです。

wrong footsteps.

对于过了的那星期，

我有很多后悔，

很多遗憾。

但是都没得祢补了，

想回，有点心痛。

如果有第二次，

我不会再犯下同样的错误。

荷山的朋友们， 我们会有第二次吗？